I am not a big fan of this time of year. Don't get me wrong, I love the colors of the leaves changing, and I love the crisp fall air, going to have a hot coffee someplace and just sitting and talking....those things are great. But I do not do well with the shorter days and the lack of sunlight.
Today is one of those days where I am not sure of my place in this world. There are family things happening, I am not sure if we will all be together this Thanksgiving (a first in all of my life) or scattered at different places. I feel as though this is partly (mainly??) my fault, but it's too much to get into here. Everything seems too big, too overwhelming, and I want to just make a blanket fort, grab some fluffy blankets and a tiny lamp and crawl inside. Stay under the blankets, inside my cozy fort until I feel better.
It's like that song by Monica "It's Just One of Dem Days" (that a girl goes through). I feel blue and inky and all around sad.
The lack of sunshine makes it hard to feel energetic. Maybe we should go to Australia for the winter? I am willing.
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